You or Not You.. I'll Be the Same

You were my sunshine

The light in my darkness

I let you shower your brightness upon me

I let you overpower my mind with your thoughts 

I let you make me trust you

I let you make me fall for you

I let you touch me

I let you kiss me to the depth of myself

I let you take away my soul with you

And now..

Now that I'm lost

Now that I have got my trust broken

Now that I find myself in the middle of nowhere

Why do I blame you?

Why do I even recall your name?

Is that even your real name, anyway?

Why do I still sob into my pillow?

Why do I hold my hand as if it's you?

It's me who has done this

The one solely responsible

And now that I've found the culprit

I decide to blame me

To give away myself

To hold you above my dignity

To hold you above love

Why do I even call it love?

Now that I've got my lessons

I decide to let myself heal

To repair my wounds with time

To let you live and live myself

I decide to let KARMA do its part

To let what's meant for you, fall upon you

To let time repeat itself,  with you

To let you realize the loss

Maybe you don't

But I decide to give you your lesson

To smile each day and each moment

To let you be jealous of my glow and my glory

To let you see me enjoy my solidarity

I decide...to be happy

Without a sunshine

But with the whole sun

I decide to LIVE